I don't know why but my current rotation just leaves me feeling dumber than when I came in, especially on days when I am post-call.
There were other rotations I had done before that I think were just as rigorous and I was fine, but somehow this one really manages to suck the life out of me. I'm trying my best. I really am. It just seems never good enough for them. I'm not good enough.
The really sad part is just when I was feeling a little more comfortable about treating patients, now I've become more tentative and unsure of myself.
Song of the day: "Lost In My Mind" - The Head And The Heart
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A part of me wants to smack you (lovingly of course) so that you'll awaken to the knowledge that while yes everyone learns and needs to keep learning, you aren't an incompetent fool - nowhere close to that.
But I also know that from what I know of you, just either need a laugh, a hug, a just someone to sit with - so while those require closeness you're going to have to believe when I say I'd offer you those if you were here - because I don't really want to be there - I like my home
Sometimes life is funny that way! Just step back and find the positive in your place there. You can do it! Everyone has those moments of lost-ness or failing just step back and remind yourself your a smart, educated,confident and strong man oh and remember to breathe!:)
Thanks ladies.
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